I keep thinking times will never change--Keep on thinking things will always be the same

There is so many things in my life that are about to change and I am growing a little anxious about it all. I have been going to school every year of my life since I was 3 years old. That is 19 years. I have always know what I will be doing at the end of each school year. However now that I am graduating in a month, I'm a little nervous about growing up and venturing out into the real world. I don't know what to expect that that is a little scary.

I remember when I was in high school and during my junior year I couldn't wait to graduate and get out of there. But when my senior year was coming to a close I started to feel the way I am now. I wanted the last month or so to pass by as slowly as possible, I guess because I didn't really know what I was headed for. There were also many significant events that happened during the summer between high school and college that completely changed my life. Most of them I wish hadn't happened and things could just go back to the way they were before. Now, since I am about to come upon a similar time in my life, I am just afraid that my life is going to change so drastically again. I know it sounds a little silly but that is how I feel.

So don't get me wrong, I am extremely excited to graduate from college. I never really thought my high school graduation was anything special. I didn't have pictures taken or stay out all night with my friends like the others did. As soon as I got my diploma I left the ceremony. Looking back now there are definitely things that I would have done differently. But now that I am getting a degree after 4 years and all of that money (thanks mom and dad lol) I really feel a sense of accomplishment. I didn't have to go to college and now that I am finished I can see how special that is and I will be taking full advantage of my graduation day. I have also decided to stop stressing about getting a job. I'm going to look at it as an adventure because I know that no matter what, I always have people around that will be there for me!